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你要的不是我

2010-10-05T21:47:00.000-07:00

哈哈！！很久没有写布落格了。其实没关系的啦。因为每人看。让我们回到主题吧。

我先在已经不是单身了，但是我觉得我爱上别的女生。海豚小姐

亲爱的海豚小姐，
我真的不知道在什么时候爱上你的。我真的有这种念头和你交往，但是我已经有了女朋友。和你在一起我真的很快乐。我知道你爱的人不是我而是丙先生。我决定放弃你。只有疏远你，我才能真的放弃你。我还是会在一边守护着你。我也是有责任让我现在的女友有个happy ending。你是我心中永远的回忆。海豚和壁虎相爱原本是不可能的。没有我的日子里，我希望你能找到自己的真名天子。

EMoing

2008-04-29T08:16:00.000-07:00

Haha back to blogging agn...who cares...nobody see it anyway.....i shld really put dwn all my past and move on...the oni ex who really still care abt me is my 1st gf....I knw I am in love nw and shld give up all my past....2nd ex dun even feel I care for her and think of the other guy more....3rd ex is even more worst...i am really like a passer by to her nw.....sorry have to stop tears are dropping like crazy

2008-02-14T05:52:00.000-08:00

Its the valentine day today...yet i am alone sitting at home typing...act i duno wat i did is it correct..cos i make a decision..i hope my previous can forget me and take tat i dun live in this universe...i knw its cruel...but I cannot forgive the mistake she did to me...the best choice is for me to forget her totally....if i forget her means i will not hate her...I do not want to hate...at least nw i am a bit regret for wat i did...at least its much better i dun want her to owe me...i rather is i am bad at least make myself better....

Today i walk the streets of tampines central....all kind of couple i see liao fat thin tall and short all got couple...except me...Alone....all alone...I got a bad feeling i going to die soon....cos i dreamt last nite tat i pee is all blood....if like this means cancer leh...i still young shldn't be superstious.....if i die liao maybe this is the reason y i want to tell her to take tat i dun live in this world...so cherish wat i hv nw ba...

Not a single present....haix....maybe time still haven come ba...may god bless me tat i will find 1 soon..

2008-02-11T19:46:00.000-08:00

我回来了。。不知道为何用华语来写我的博客。。有可能是我觉得华语表达我的心事会比较好吧。。哈哈。。

我婆婆刚去世不久，我的外婆也和我婆婆一样离开了我们。刚好是一个月后我的婆婆去世。我心里真的非常难过。我已经够衰了，但我还是豪迈的笑。老天为何要这样对待我。我告诉在上天的两位我尊敬的老人家保佑我。希望我能把我过去的爱情给忘了。多么希望这世上真的有忘情水。

情人节要到了，但我是孤独的过这。让我写下我对我的过去的感情，甲，乙，丙，的一些想说的话吧。

甲小姐：

你是让我最信任的人，但你背叛了我和别的男人跑了。先在被甩了，应该是我们所说的报应吧。给你机会，但你三番四次的侮辱了我。应该觉得幸福的人，但觉得我不够爱你。我为你煮东西，但感觉却不是感动。你伤了我最深，但我还笨笨的给你伤害。我该做的我也做了。我要你知道，不是我失去了你，是你失去了我。一个将来有美好的前途的我。失去了我是你的损失。你将来发生什么事都与我无关。我会过的比你好。我有想过和你做个朋友，但是我有可能配不上你，竟然你都讲了在你眼里我像王子一样，你的世界不是给你这种高贵人生活的。也好，我的世界也不能容纳你这种愚昧人。

丙小姐：
我的人生最快乐的事是和你在一起。因为你让我知道我存在的意义。我的人生最后悔的事也是和你在一起。因为让我们觉得很尴尬。我会尊受我们之间的诺言“不管发生什么事，我们还是永远的好朋友 ”我要谢谢你给我美好的梦，我从来没想过我可以拥有这么可爱的女友。梦终究是梦，梦醒来也要勇敢面对人生。最近你还好吗？我连发这么简单的简讯都没有。只会傻傻做个小丑。你说我样子和一举一动好像小男孩，这些是为了掩饰我内心的黑暗一面。我知道我不应该这样，但不是这么简单的一件事。

乙小姐：
我是真的关心你，但你不是真的爱我。你心里还没忘记他。在你眼里他是完美，而我只是能在旁为你高兴的好朋友。我感觉我前世一定是欠你的，当有问题是就来找我。对你好，你觉得很不自在。你的傻傻的性格，让我笑和让我但心。很多人说我们很配，但我们是属于有缘无份。我希望你能和他有个美好得未来。

2008-01-26T04:10:00.000-08:00

Dun knw y today suddenly get so emo tat i drop my tears again.....y i cannot forget the past 3 loves tat i had...is my kind heart tat is making me so frustrated?...y do i care for others more than myself?....I made a promise tat I will not shed a tears for either of them lol....ok let them all pass ba....ppl say i have a pair of beautiful eyes cos of my long eyelashes. This eyelashes are actually nourish by my tears lol....nvm la...my true love will come soon...dun let the 3 gals to ruin my life...even my true love is one of them...i oso dun mind...act nw any gal who propose to me nw i might accept without consideration lor lol becoz this will nv happen de mah lol

2008-01-12T02:24:00.000-08:00

Love is a drug....once u have it, u are addicted to it even how it hurt u.....haha...got hurt by love this time but this time is happily break...i feel tat ever she start dating wif me, her smile is getting lesser and lesser. All i do is to provoke her....I am useless...how to protect her in the future....i am sure i am the good guy...tats y i always lose out to other guys...tats y they got a saying gals like bad boy....haix...maybe bad boy has a sense of security ba....really too much thing happen 2 me liao...my grandma death make me even more sad...I rather be her 4eva frens to be there for her....haix.....my previous is there to attend the whole cremation ceremony....I got touch by her action but its not enough for me to forgive and trust her again.....I am giving her a chance to woo me back...its either take it or leave it.....

2007-12-16T18:37:00.000-08:00

I am really tired....after running this endless race....I just want to rest.....am I just too kind.....or I am just too stupid... does kind= easily cheated.... can say my kind acts pay ba....I have found a very cute kawaii gf....Last sat was the most happiest moment in my life....can say i become more courageous ba...I act dare to take the initiative to hold a gal hand...hoho...but take beri long hehe...ok la...I shld satisfy wif wat i have....she always give me support and worry 4 me....I really love her a lot.....the past is history..she will be my present and future....hehe...ok la..lazy to blog i stop liao

2007-12-02T12:10:00.000-08:00

King JL is really busy for the past week, so bz even have to be out of audi this week. I am so sian lor. Lets see wat I have been doing ba.

Tat week can say I have all kinds of feeling. Sad, Happy, Shock, any feeling oso can have. I have pluck my courage to tell a gal I really like her even though nv met her in real life b4. I knw she is the one who really bring back my smile. Can say she's nt the oni one who bring back, but she is the one who is truly bring back for no other motive. I dun knw la.....nw the ans is nt being rejected and oso nt accepted. The happy thing is I chat wif her on the phone liao......WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

For proj presentation, I dun knw la. Seems like other grp like bo chap tat kind of attitude i oso sian 1/2 liao lor. Den i oso beri blur blur this few days. Maybe my mind is all come out is her ba...hehe...

Finally back to gym yest, too bz until no time to exercise. My frens keep joking abt me lor. Gym for gal ar......den my face is like psps lor....wat even worst is yest i dream, no shld say nightmare,tat i gay and i kiss wif one the guy fren in poly. I forget is who liao....all i knw i got shock and wake up keep rinsing my mouth. PPl gym might take steroid, my ans is who need it when I have vitamin L,O,V,E.

Den today wake up is in tears again lor, my previous gf keep say i give her false hope or whatever la....make her get shaken....I really give up on her liao la....the more i 2gt the more i am hurt....she is nw putting the blame on me....saying i dun give her secure....keep saying gal like attracted to me....if after 4 years her ans is saying no secure.....i damn sad de lor....it's abt trust....since she dun trust me wat for u holding on me....nw she blame i dun trust her.....ya right...enough liao la.....she is past tense liao and the gal i like will be my future tense....

Act fri can play audi wif elmo gang, but u knw ar....i am under the wooing period so cannot join wif elmo....ok la....if i get the gal....the next elmo event i sponsor....Deal or no deal?...(crowd shouting no deal).....hoho.....

2007-11-25T14:58:00.000-08:00

Current Hairstyle

Before Haircut

Finally got a haircut liao, this haircut got a very big meaning. This hair cut is to cut away my past love. Jusk a song the song"一了白了" . There's a line"斩断纠缠的爱，从今就一了白了".

It seems like no diff right, act I didn't cut much. I dun want too short, so just trim it lor. I have to do hair treatment. Haha, so young have to do liao. I got oily scalp, and quite serious, so soon will become 凸头 liao. My pic looks alright la, becoz i try to cover it mah.

So fast 2007 is coming to an end liao, hope its over soon la. It is the most dramatic year for me lor. Full of rise and falls, make so many frens in audi and they encourage when i am dwn. The betrayed love, the handicap team and so many unhappy events. So i wish this year can end soon, so i can make a big wish saying I want a peaceful life.

I think i shld mix around wif elmo members more. Seems like I am like quite left out when with them. I shld tok more ba, haha. No matter wat I am the coolest(cool=cold) guy in elmo mah.

2007-11-24T17:21:00.000-08:00

Decided to blog again....dun have any special reason ba...I feel like this is the only place i can throw my sorrow....those who know me, shld knw tat I have a broke up for abt 1 month plus liao...I have fully healed liao la....but sumtime will like have sum flashback of the scence tat I have wif her...as times goes...it slowly fade away....i can't even describe how she look like now...I am quite angry wif her nw ba....she say until like i nobody want like tat....ask her for patch few ago and her reply yest is "patch is for single, not when attached"....i mean oh pls....i ask to patch is to test if I get rejected will I feel sad. I dun want when I with other gal liao, my heart still misses her like in the past when I date wif MISS A(Fake Name). She ask me for help yest and i decided to help today. Guess wat? She say sorry if she give me the wrong idea she want to patch. I mean come on, its I'm the one to say sorry ba. Sorry tat I am not some desporado or scum tat will brk ppl relationship.I help as a fren and she treat me like tat. Take it as I blind la.Btw,She keep commenting on Miss A as flirt,liar and whatever, say I shld nt trust her easily. I think is like so stupid lor...if its true, at least miss A got the criteria to be one. Just a guy say he like her and she runaway liao. In the past quarrel, she got nobody want tats y stick back to me and I soft hearted accept. Btw, tat guy looks is really....i dun want to say la....got eyes ppl can see la....outer look doesn't matter but inner right....steal a guy gf....u consider tat is nice then nice lor. I King JL is not nobody want, so stop pity me. I am glad to have fren like bao to console me when I am the most depressed. She encourage me to try to patch after tat month. Even its a bad idea, but I still think is good. If it wasn't for tat, I can nv see how she act looks at me. She can shed all her crocodile tears in front all our past sec sch frens. I king JL is ruler of my own empire. I dun need frens who dun trust me and trust her lies. The judgment day will come one day. As the 10 commandments have said, do not commit audltery. They will have their retribution one day and I dun have to lay my royal hand on them